you're a true sweet heart. i want to see you happy.
|[darkstarliar]|[508]|[1:53 am - Tuesday,February 24, 2004]

yes. happiness is concentrating on being it. but it takes a lot of work. and i can't always keep it going. so i'm a fucking mess. switch back and flash forward. crushed bugs and cracked nails. rose petals and suns shining.
|[star bright]|[507]|[1:23 am - Monday,February 23, 2004]

happiness is a choice you make. it's a life choice. i think you're right about it being an act of will.
|[emily]|[506]|[5:57 pm - Saturday,February 21, 2004]

I think about being overweight a lot. I'm a fairly aesthetically-minded person, and I don't like how my body looks. I don't have an eating disorder, but sometimes I (shamefully) wish that I did. A girl and I really love each other a lot, and it would get sexual if it weren't for my feeling gross about weight. This is definately my problem, and something I hate about myself, and try to get over, but if I'm going to get off with a person, I have to be attracted to them. There are definately people who love bodies that are big, and there are people who don't care (my lover, for one, will be happy with my body however it looks). The upside to all this is that I feel better (emotionally, mentally, and physically) when I'm exercising and eating healthfully, so I try to stay on that straight and narrow. I love people dearly without being attracted to them sexually, and vice versa; and I definately acknowledge that body size is relevant to this. Everyone's attraction to people is built around different perceptions and experiences, though, so I agree with starzero, but emily is also right, it's not a fairytale, people will be attracted to every body type.
|[tessman]|[505]|[3:28 pm - Tuesday,February 17, 2004]

I've actually thought a lot about this question, and I don't know the answer. I mean, obviously you deserve the whole enchilada, and my suspicion is that you truly are beautiful, inside and out, in the most objective and superficial of ways. But I know that in this particular weird universe, a few pounds more or less can make a lot of difference in how hard it is to find someone. I don't have the most respect for the menfolk, but I do think there are one or two of them out there who don't get all their ideas about beauty from playboy or maxim or whatever. Hold out for one of those.
|[rdg]|[504]|[2:30 pm - Sunday,February 8, 2004]

Hooray is the word of the day! Also, see Glitter Eye Liner. *mwuah*
|[Pretentious]|[503]|[2:21 am - Sunday,February 8, 2004]

i've learned to hate the disputation that inner beauty is all that matters, that outer apperance is unimportant. it is, and it should be. what's more important, though, is that someone love you for both. because if they only love your inner beauty then they're ignoring an important part of you, and you're getting shorted. if they only love your outer beauty, well, you're getting fucked. personally, i'd rather be with the n than paris hilton, but i think i'd be happier (and a better person) were i with someone i found more attractive than the n, who still had as much inner beauty. i'm not sure whether such a person exists. nor am i sure i could find her if she did.
|[an honest star]|[502]|[1:20 am - Sunday,February 8, 2004]

i left this exact message in your diaryland notes: ".. i think everybody deserves love. i think that a partner to love you for you and not your shell is *not* a fairytale. not only do i believe in it, but i have seen examples of true adoration having everything to do with brain and soul and heart and nothing to do with the shell. you *never* deserve to be belittled, EVER. ever. [that guy was an absolute pig for hurting you like that.] you wait for complete acceptance. you're beautiful. absolutely beautiful." - em.
|[Emily]|[501]|[8:33 pm - Saturday,February 7, 2004]

Sorry about the duplicate entries. You know how Sign my Guestbook gets sometimes. For some reason, lately I have been having troule using it from AOL. Its just a quirky combination!
|[Jack]|[500]|[3:47 am - Saturday,February 7, 2004]

Sorry about the duplicate entries. You know how Sign my Guestbook gets sometimes. For some reason, lately I have been having troule using it from AOL. Its just a quirky combination!
|[Jack]|[499]|[3:46 am - Saturday,February 7, 2004]