all i can say is: in due time. i find myself fluctuating back and forth between "real" people and "text" people. since i've been back home, i've hardly been able to go out. one of the reasons i moved back in with my mom was that i couldn't afford to go out. so most of the people i talk to lately are online. but nevertheless, i still have my friends and we occasionally hang out. but don't ever wish that your heart be broken! i know i shouldn't be one to talk, cuz i've craved that passion and heartache before. it can get really scary and damaging. i like to think that it's just not our time yet. but it's emminent. it will come. there's no way for you to know and appreciate real love without the heartache compared to someone who has it and has never been hurt before. so the pain you may be feeling now, the longing, the loneliness, that may be all you need, but it may not. just know that it will come in due time, and you shouldn't try and bring it on yourself. and it's okay to wish for other people! (thank you for your note by the way, that's very sweet of you...i will be getting my guitar back on friday, so learn to play yours! a dusty guitar is sacreligious to me!! haha) but wish for yourself as well! take it one day at a time. you're a very intelligent girl. you have a beautiful way with words. i'd love to hear it in song! i'll definitely give you my number, once i can afford to get my cell phone back on! haha. which is soon! hang in there!
|[prophecyboy]|[88]|[1:42 pm - Monday,February 10, 2003]

Dreams do usually tell you things...at least that is what I believe. Once I had a dream about my son getting frozen in Russia covered with black spots, and then it changed to my dog getting attacked by black killer bees which got onto me when I tried to get them off of him. I woke up thinking...black spots...what could they mean, then...thought "I'd better stop smoking." Someone I used to talk to once told me that the way you dream tells who you are. It was very interesting how accurate this person told me about me from the way I dream.
|[komachi]|[87]|[2:51 pm - Sunday,February 9, 2003]

i use to leave up near seattle when i was smaller, and we would have to drive through mountains of windy paved roads and little branches of dirt roads leading into those houses. i use to wonder things like that all the time. even recently when i went back to visit, i sat in the backseat staring at all the lives that could've been. even mine. if i had never moved.
|[prophecyboy]|[86]|[7:31 pm - Saturday,February 8, 2003]

Only time for a quick word before filming my audtion tape. One more strange thing: I've never read the 'Ender' books, but a friend of mine just bought me Ender's Game for Christmas, and it's on my shelf right here at school, waiting to be read. Now I think I'll have to pick it up soon.
|[piotr]|[85]|[4:54 pm - Friday,February 7, 2003]

Thank you for signing my guest book. And thank you for your kind words. Umm..I think I am leaning towards a push over. ;) lol...
|[komachi]|[84]|[11:36 am - Wednesday,February 5, 2003]

what you write is so wonderful, things i often myslef have wondered. What would happen if.....? thank you for putting thoughts into words.
|[Peeko]|[83]|[5:03 pm - Tuesday,February 4, 2003]

Thank you. You are stunning. with love, this girl
|[crazyemokid]|[82]|[2:12 am - Monday,February 3, 2003]

Clicked on your banner. Beautiful layout and wonderful writing.
|[Amy]|[81]|[0:43 am - Monday,February 3, 2003]

How did you write something talking about cranking up the music that I could find just when I was doing the same thing? All I know is that you must be magic, and not just because of that little coincidence.
|[piotr]|[80]|[4:32 pm - Sunday,February 2, 2003]

Thank you. I wish all the same for you. I would like to say that one day it wil get better and maybe it will. I will try to hold hope for us both. xoxoxo
|[Kim]|[79]|[0:45 am - Sunday,February 2, 2003]